Track 58: Mommy You trolled me *sobs*

Whyyy...!
I-I was so damn scared when you dont wanna talk or look to me! Q-Q eventhough its just for a day... Still make me felt super lonely..! I eventhought of running away from home cause of this. huhu.

I dont even dare to come out from my room for the whole days.. And my tears! My precious tears! *sobs*

Mommy whyyy...! *cries*

Anyway... I guess I have enough holiday already. Time to relearn again? I'm so not ready for work.. *flop down* I'll get ready now anyway.. huhu.

Ah also. I'm done drawing these. ovo"

Masak Ikan Kicap (cair) Simple / Simple Dish Fish with sweet sauce

This is one of the easiest dish in our country. There are not much to be prepared, and the time it took is short, so you can dash away. lol.

Name: Fish with Sweet sauce (Simple) + Rice
Time: 10 - 15 minute

Ingredients:

- 3 onions
- 2 garlic
- 2 green chilli
- A spoon blended chilli paste
- 2 or 3 spoon of Sweet sauce
- Salt
- 2 mackerel fish
- 1/2 Big onion
- Tomato

How to:

1 - Blend the onions, garlic, and green chilli.
2 - Cut the tomato into four. Slice the big onion.
3 - Start the fire, pour in some oil. (Not too much as you don't want it to be too oily.)
4 - Once the oil is heated, put in the blended ingredients, stir fry them until they become slightly brown.
5 - Then put in the chilli paste, mix well with stir fried.
6 - After awhile, pour in 1/3 of a cup of water. Mix it, and wait until the water is gone.
7 - Repeat step 6 twice. (This is to make sure the chilli paste is cooked well)
8 - Pour in a full cup of water, if its not enough add another half cup of water.
9 - Once they are boiling, put the salt, and the fish in.
10 - After a minute, flip the fish to the other side and put in tomato and big onion.
11 - Wait for 2-3 minute for the fish to be fully cooked and turn off the fire.
12 - Serve the dish, arrange the tomato and big onion for better presentation. Done.


PLEASE EAT WITH RICE AND OTHER ADDITIONAL DISH.

Track 57: Ah, is that so...

Again i make my mom angry and upset with me last night... Its probably because she is tired at her workplace, um, am sorry for troubling you mom.

But mom, this silent treatment is very unbearable... I probably upset you too much that you dont wanna see me again. If that is so... I'll make a plan so that i will move out then. As soon as i got a job, I'll move out. I'll then move as far away from you, so that you will not need to look at my face then.

Maybe later not staying in the country is better for you... If that is so.. then when i have enough, I'll migrate then. China? Japan? Philipines? I'll try when the day come then.

I'm sorry I am a useless, lazy, dumb child. Im sure because I'm used to being with you, so I became more unruly. I'm sorry.

...
Maybe when I finish paying my PTPTN... I'll just... forever gone.
That would be nicer right?

Track 56 : Oh wow. lol.

I just recalled something as I am watching the Tv, seeing the winner for ABPH (? was it Anugerah Bintang Popular Harian? maybe?) *cough*.

I saw one of the winner named as Wani, which make me recall when I was a kid, maybe in kindergarten? That when my family and I went back to their hometown in Kelantan, a neighbor daughter name is Wani too. Of course she was older than I am at that time, Im guessing that maybe she is in high school?

To make the story is that, I am a kid, liked her when I first saw her. Lol im not a lesbian or anything, I'm definitely straight. Haha. Anyway, it was probably because she is very pretty (from my point of view ofc), look like a proper lady, seems gentle too..

Though now I dont really remember how she look like, since I only met her that one time only. But that one time let me remember her so strongly for quite a few years. Lol. Probably if i were to describe her, I can vividly say that her skin is as white as the moon, soft and silky like silk, her black hair glitter under the sunlight, shes thin and tall, lips as red as the little cherry.

What? It may be possible that it was a kind of first love, in a childish way. haha. Why i say so? Its because when i was a kid, i act like a boy, play tough like a boy, like to wear like boys, and i like to fight too. I didnt like my hair long, so my hair is always short, since long hair is hot and sweaty.

Anyway now, who knows how shes been, but definitely she must have already been married and have family, cause I myself is already 23 now. lol. Such a memory is sometime quite fun to recall lol. Its rather interesting.