well, hey, its been awhile.. im in a bad position now tho.
let see, a week ago, on 22 december 2016, at night, i fought with my friend, which i have consider her as one of my current close friend.. so for me, she was a very dear friend to me.. i was upset, i was actually upset that i was not able to finish any work because of one of the application that i need to use did not work.
so i actually end up say rude things to her, as what will be shown later, which those image will be a strict reminder on me and my behavior.
after a week, which means today, when i see it back, i find that it was just a slight misunderstanding. and i, i, anieyra, cried my eyes out for four whole day, day and night, whenever i saw her, saw her picture, talk about her, or even when i think about her,
i was very sad at the fact that, just as i have suspected recently, i, may not be someone who is important to her. and, based on her action now, it was 100% very obvious that she, never actually trust me.
even this three day class in this week, we no longer talk to each other. though maybe not so obvious to other people, but i, indeed am still sad.
i did apologized to her, soon after we fought that night. because i know either way one of us need to admit first. so, now, i suppose this should no longer be my problem. i must never care about this anymore.
we now are stranger.
we now are just a passerby.
we now, no longer have any relationship.
from what i can see, even if she lose one friend, like someone like me, it doesnt really affect her.
why?
obviously because she have hundreds of other friends that she can replace me. she was that kind of person, who can easily make friends with everyone. she was very cheerful. she was very friendly. and she was kind in her own way.
so now. there is no need for me to continue to be by her side.
why?
easy, i can see from her post in the social media. that she has absolute no intention to reconcil with me. so why should i?
so why should i feel so heartbroken?
for this new year, my new aim is to complete my degree. and then forget her.
not that i ever can forget such person.
i'll make sure, by the new upcoming semester, i will no longer have any such feelings toward her. no more feeling of care toward her.
later on the next track, i will attach all the images which will forever be carved into my memory.
as bad as i am, i will not counterattack her post.
why?
since its childish. lol.
29 December 2016
16 November 2016
Track 52-: [OURS] Was it game? Was it roleplay?
when we were friend during our high school year, that one who year were full of things such as emotions, misunderstanding, anger, happiness, and even serenity which can simply be accomplished for any of our action. Thats how i feel it, and it was trully what i liked from my high school year.
Anyway, continuing the previous post, tho be honest, i do feel aware that i might have become a friend stealer, since i did took her away from one of her closest friend, and i am pretty sure, no almost 100% sure, that her friend do not like it.
Why do i think that it is like that? it was because not long after i became friend with her, maybe i was too clingy to her, or maybe i was too close to her, so that friend of her.. end up, not becoming much close to her anymore. And the more i think about it, it do feels like that.
However though, hopefully i was wrong, and hopefully they were still keeping contact with each other too. Maybe i just want to believe things to be like that..
Anyway, we started our entertainment through roleplays and also social media, named 'tagged.com'. in tagged, we do meet some great people, they were so friendly despite being busy in their own life as a college student..
I do wonder how has the one named little lulu, lelouch, suzaku, and also C.C had been now.. I wonder if there is any way or even any possibility for us to actually be able to keep in touch with them again? because i myself has lost my tagged account, literally i do not remember my email, username or anything that related to that account, so i was not able to even try to login into tagged again.
I do honestly missed the cool roleplay we played by using code geass as our background roleplay story, I, MiRamen, do miss all you guys.. I still cant help but wonder why tagged remove the group function.. it was such a nice function, and i liked it.. *sigh*
anyway then, we also actually have done some roleplay by writting inside a small note book. I dont really care whether my lunch money was used to purchase the book, but all i case is that we are able to continue it, and it is enough to make me feel happy.
Anyway after tagged has lose its fun, we both moved to tinierme.com, and at that time, tinierme was probably was still only opened for less than a year or so, since the item design and etc were still cute and plain.. lol.
And due to my craze for the items in tinierme, i was willingly lose my sleep, playing and chatting with the people of tinierme, i even make commission to try get new items.. hahha. and i do remember, falling in love, virtually, with a player, and became so upset afterward.
So yeah, it was fun. maybe when i have free time, or whenever i remember, i will post what the player respond from a game of 'guess my gender'. some of the answer were interesting and some was rather funny. lol.
Anyway, continuing the previous post, tho be honest, i do feel aware that i might have become a friend stealer, since i did took her away from one of her closest friend, and i am pretty sure, no almost 100% sure, that her friend do not like it.
Why do i think that it is like that? it was because not long after i became friend with her, maybe i was too clingy to her, or maybe i was too close to her, so that friend of her.. end up, not becoming much close to her anymore. And the more i think about it, it do feels like that.
However though, hopefully i was wrong, and hopefully they were still keeping contact with each other too. Maybe i just want to believe things to be like that..
Anyway, we started our entertainment through roleplays and also social media, named 'tagged.com'. in tagged, we do meet some great people, they were so friendly despite being busy in their own life as a college student..
I do wonder how has the one named little lulu, lelouch, suzaku, and also C.C had been now.. I wonder if there is any way or even any possibility for us to actually be able to keep in touch with them again? because i myself has lost my tagged account, literally i do not remember my email, username or anything that related to that account, so i was not able to even try to login into tagged again.
I do honestly missed the cool roleplay we played by using code geass as our background roleplay story, I, MiRamen, do miss all you guys.. I still cant help but wonder why tagged remove the group function.. it was such a nice function, and i liked it.. *sigh*
anyway then, we also actually have done some roleplay by writting inside a small note book. I dont really care whether my lunch money was used to purchase the book, but all i case is that we are able to continue it, and it is enough to make me feel happy.
Anyway after tagged has lose its fun, we both moved to tinierme.com, and at that time, tinierme was probably was still only opened for less than a year or so, since the item design and etc were still cute and plain.. lol.
And due to my craze for the items in tinierme, i was willingly lose my sleep, playing and chatting with the people of tinierme, i even make commission to try get new items.. hahha. and i do remember, falling in love, virtually, with a player, and became so upset afterward.
So yeah, it was fun. maybe when i have free time, or whenever i remember, i will post what the player respond from a game of 'guess my gender'. some of the answer were interesting and some was rather funny. lol.
Track 50: The mystery of missing laptop screws -18 june 2015
this one post have been keeping as a draft for a really long time lol. this was a year a go, tho good thing i do keep this a draft.
Anyway the thing is, i was wondering, how the heck do my laptop screw be missing, lol. I noticed it too late, so it was like already 8 of them went missing. haha.
luckily i do found them again, tho only three of them, so at least i can try to screw those part which have the highest possibility of being opened if wasn't being screwed, and i was still am wondering even if it has been a year.
And the funny thing is that i still hasnt manage to find any computer shop that are able to find of sell me the screw that my laptop need, as somehow my laptop screw were rather small, so no screw can match, due to this type of laptop was still new at that time.
and now im just simply lazy on trying to find them again, lol.
ah, anyway, my mom did say that maybe that when we send this laptop back at the acer service center, the might have not screw them tight enough, lol. which was also can be logical that the screw can easily became loose now.
so it has become my weekly routine to check these remaining screw and making sure that they are still there. lol.
Anyway the thing is, i was wondering, how the heck do my laptop screw be missing, lol. I noticed it too late, so it was like already 8 of them went missing. haha.
luckily i do found them again, tho only three of them, so at least i can try to screw those part which have the highest possibility of being opened if wasn't being screwed, and i was still am wondering even if it has been a year.
And the funny thing is that i still hasnt manage to find any computer shop that are able to find of sell me the screw that my laptop need, as somehow my laptop screw were rather small, so no screw can match, due to this type of laptop was still new at that time.
and now im just simply lazy on trying to find them again, lol.
ah, anyway, my mom did say that maybe that when we send this laptop back at the acer service center, the might have not screw them tight enough, lol. which was also can be logical that the screw can easily became loose now.
so it has become my weekly routine to check these remaining screw and making sure that they are still there. lol.
Track 52: [OURS] Its starting with ..
ohkay~ imma wanna review my history lol. with a friend of mine. this post with a tag of [OURS] are just about me with a friend of mine and how we are up until now. :3 i wonder how much i will be able to write about me and her. Ah and this can maybe also be considered as a diary, probably, lol.
hmn, as i can remember, i met her in secondary school, a sekolah rendah agama (SRA), a year after i move to Kundang from Kuang, to my new house. so yeah i feel like of course, lonely, not having any friend at an unknown school, and was soo upset. Tho who knows, if i didnt move to thiis school, i might have not meet her.. lol.
so yeah my first meeting was honestly was in the last year of my secondary school. However i did not approach her, as i was more to the type that love to go play around and playing tricks. Though i do envy her drawing, since i did saw her drawing a few time when i was playing, lol.
So the second time i met her again was in high school, it was during my third year of my high school, I do wonder how exactly did we go on and talk to each other, tho i do glad that we did, else it would be an unthinkable, i may not even be her friend until now if neither of us start first, lol.
We did get close to each other due to our interest and also our hobby, which is drawing. though for me, she was like a sifu for me, cause at high school, her drawing were already so amazing.
Ah yeah, the story that i post in my other blog, titled 'Arent we friend', were a way for me to keep my memory with her, our interesting memory, our friendship, our rage and our disappointment. though i was still trying to memorize our memory, even though it may only be from my view.. i hoped that i will always forever remember it.
And continuing this, our friendship, despite our parting, her have to move to other place, to other school, our friendship still hold on, somehow. even though we became friend for a year.. how did this survive ? how did this able to surpass those other friendship that are more than 3 years?
and even now, we are still keeping in contact.
hmn, as i can remember, i met her in secondary school, a sekolah rendah agama (SRA), a year after i move to Kundang from Kuang, to my new house. so yeah i feel like of course, lonely, not having any friend at an unknown school, and was soo upset. Tho who knows, if i didnt move to thiis school, i might have not meet her.. lol.
so yeah my first meeting was honestly was in the last year of my secondary school. However i did not approach her, as i was more to the type that love to go play around and playing tricks. Though i do envy her drawing, since i did saw her drawing a few time when i was playing, lol.
So the second time i met her again was in high school, it was during my third year of my high school, I do wonder how exactly did we go on and talk to each other, tho i do glad that we did, else it would be an unthinkable, i may not even be her friend until now if neither of us start first, lol.
We did get close to each other due to our interest and also our hobby, which is drawing. though for me, she was like a sifu for me, cause at high school, her drawing were already so amazing.
Ah yeah, the story that i post in my other blog, titled 'Arent we friend', were a way for me to keep my memory with her, our interesting memory, our friendship, our rage and our disappointment. though i was still trying to memorize our memory, even though it may only be from my view.. i hoped that i will always forever remember it.
And continuing this, our friendship, despite our parting, her have to move to other place, to other school, our friendship still hold on, somehow. even though we became friend for a year.. how did this survive ? how did this able to surpass those other friendship that are more than 3 years?
and even now, we are still keeping in contact.
Track 51: again returning here. Lol.
Yet another year has passed now and im once again return here. Lol. Wonder what i've been doing? O well, i have literally graduated my diploma in 2015..
and now currently continued my studies further, and so iam now in my bachelor and are already in my second year of bachelor. Lol.
What? You think this is fast? Nahhh, i just dont need to take the first year subjects cause i continued my studies at the same university...
So! Coz the subject are similar to my diploma subject, it is a toootallyyy waste of time for me to take them again. So the admin exempt the subject. Ha.
So yeah, thats how ive been, being up side down from the fast paced semester, and now with the addition of me father want me to take driving license, im all the more became muuuchhh busier. Lol.
Heck, im even currently taking project 1 subject, preparing for the project, making sure documentation is finished first before the real work start.
Waw! Now after typing this, i realize that i have lots of things to do. Lol. Hahha.
Hahha. Okie then, imma chaw now, lol. I have a loooot more to type, lol, but if i dont stop here, it aint finishing up soon coz its been ages since the last time i posted here afterall, hahha.
Wigrely~ wihhily~ poof~
*dissappear n who know when i will post again. Lol*
Ei. Why cant i upload pics from ma phone?! Fagdjdbabdghw
and now currently continued my studies further, and so iam now in my bachelor and are already in my second year of bachelor. Lol.
What? You think this is fast? Nahhh, i just dont need to take the first year subjects cause i continued my studies at the same university...
So! Coz the subject are similar to my diploma subject, it is a toootallyyy waste of time for me to take them again. So the admin exempt the subject. Ha.
So yeah, thats how ive been, being up side down from the fast paced semester, and now with the addition of me father want me to take driving license, im all the more became muuuchhh busier. Lol.
Heck, im even currently taking project 1 subject, preparing for the project, making sure documentation is finished first before the real work start.
Waw! Now after typing this, i realize that i have lots of things to do. Lol. Hahha.
Hahha. Okie then, imma chaw now, lol. I have a loooot more to type, lol, but if i dont stop here, it aint finishing up soon coz its been ages since the last time i posted here afterall, hahha.
Wigrely~ wihhily~ poof~
*dissappear n who know when i will post again. Lol*
Ei. Why cant i upload pics from ma phone?! Fagdjdbabdghw
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