Mom, I'm sorry for today... I have angered you too much... I was rather ignorant, so it is my fault... I'm sorry that i am an unfillial child, sorry i dissapointed you again mom. Also im sorry for using a lame excuse to go out today...
To be honest, today I am simply accompanying my friend to go to Daikin Headquater at sungai buloh, and I dont intend to go play or go far, really, since i preffered to sleep more. However along with her, i submitted my resume incase if they have any job opening there. Though i did saw one opening which my course maybe can join as.
Why? because i am actually deadly scared out of my *** for this new interview, the closer is it to the date, the more scared and nervous i actually become. I can actually felt butterfly fluttering in my stomach, and i feel like i wanna go run away instead.
ah? what? Since when i have become a coward? If i need to explain, well, i guess because of the shock and depression that i receive during my internship period then. It was a great company, but I feel really lonely. I dont know who to talk to. I dont want both of you know that I was depressed. So I smiled in front of you.
Why? Why am i not telling you? I feel bad if I say bad things about this. I feel bad if I say that I was uncomfortable. I feel bad because I am not able to fullfill their expectation. Plus, I only managed to get an internship spot at that company because of Dad's friend's wife help. Else i wont be finishing my internship yet now.
Anyway for now, today I send my resume to two place, I'll try to find a simple job for now, cause I've been staying at home for too long, isnt it? I hope one of these place will let me work for them I guess...
Uh, for the interview on this friday... I-I'll try... *cries miserably*
