well, hey, its been awhile.. im in a bad position now tho.
let see, a week ago, on 22 december 2016, at night, i fought with my friend, which i have consider her as one of my current close friend.. so for me, she was a very dear friend to me.. i was upset, i was actually upset that i was not able to finish any work because of one of the application that i need to use did not work.
so i actually end up say rude things to her, as what will be shown later, which those image will be a strict reminder on me and my behavior.
after a week, which means today, when i see it back, i find that it was just a slight misunderstanding. and i, i, anieyra, cried my eyes out for four whole day, day and night, whenever i saw her, saw her picture, talk about her, or even when i think about her,
i was very sad at the fact that, just as i have suspected recently, i, may not be someone who is important to her. and, based on her action now, it was 100% very obvious that she, never actually trust me.
even this three day class in this week, we no longer talk to each other. though maybe not so obvious to other people, but i, indeed am still sad.
i did apologized to her, soon after we fought that night. because i know either way one of us need to admit first. so, now, i suppose this should no longer be my problem. i must never care about this anymore.
we now are stranger.
we now are just a passerby.
we now, no longer have any relationship.
from what i can see, even if she lose one friend, like someone like me, it doesnt really affect her.
why?
obviously because she have hundreds of other friends that she can replace me. she was that kind of person, who can easily make friends with everyone. she was very cheerful. she was very friendly. and she was kind in her own way.
so now. there is no need for me to continue to be by her side.
why?
easy, i can see from her post in the social media. that she has absolute no intention to reconcil with me. so why should i?
so why should i feel so heartbroken?
for this new year, my new aim is to complete my degree. and then forget her.
not that i ever can forget such person.
i'll make sure, by the new upcoming semester, i will no longer have any such feelings toward her. no more feeling of care toward her.
later on the next track, i will attach all the images which will forever be carved into my memory.
as bad as i am, i will not counterattack her post.
why?
since its childish. lol.
