Trails 40: I'm afraid...

I'm saying this fully with honesty... I'm feeling very afraid... You'd never know how or what my mother will punish me for this... Even thinking about this give me shivers... I don't want to return home... I wished that i could just runs away from all this...

But this is reality... I could't run away, I must and will have to face it no matter what happen... I don't want to be punished... I'm afraid of it... I feared my parent's anger.. W-will they shouts at me? will they hits me? Will they glares at me? I don't want to face all those... I want to run...

Ah.. This is making me stressed up... an idiotic like this black sheep,.. Stressed?? How can that be? Is that even logical? Ah.. Probably it is, since.. I'm after all also a human being.. In 5 more days... my parent will return.. I-I'll just better get ready to be punished..

I'm sorry Mother, Father,.. This black sheep have been such a bad bad sheep and plus more, making both of you disappointed.