Trails 14: No Reason To Stay Here Anymore... yet i did stay...

i wonder... why...
i wonder... how...


hmn... i guess, good luck in your life then... 
though a farewell is said, but hopefully you are not gonna poof for real...
just hoping... even if that hope gaves me a lot of headache,
worrying...


if that is for your own good, then do it...
i then shall not try or begs you to not do it...
cause you have grown up,
you have to make decisions by yourself,
you can do anything you want,
if that is for your own good.


be responsible, take your time to think,
before act, cause if act first, you might regret,
for not carefully think about it.


if people hates you, ignores them,
or if you wonders why, ask them.


some people says that, 
if we are nice, kind and good,
we might get lots of haters,
but also lots of people that loves your kindness.
reason for getting haters?
cause probably they are feeling jealous of your kindness.


don't says something about anyone,
if you didn't even know who exactly they are,
if you didn't even know what kind of situation they are in.
cause, you never know if they are in a bad situation.


don't do something bad to other people, 
cause it will comes back to you,
you can never know when,
sooner or later.


ahh, why did i write this?
i wonder why...
did i write this for her?
or for myself...?


even if i don't have my biggest reason to stay, 
i still have some small reasons...
various type of small reasons...


thinking of leaving..
but that's a no.
i'll stay. probably will stay.


i am sad,
but i'll try to not be sad.
i'll try to not cry...
though i am crying right now.


ah.. how stupid am i...
what a shame...

how sad. Being angry just becoz imma sad, just bcoz wanna cover myself that was crying.
how bad, angry at random people just because of that.