Track 56 : Oh wow. lol.

I just recalled something as I am watching the Tv, seeing the winner for ABPH (? was it Anugerah Bintang Popular Harian? maybe?) *cough*.

I saw one of the winner named as Wani, which make me recall when I was a kid, maybe in kindergarten? That when my family and I went back to their hometown in Kelantan, a neighbor daughter name is Wani too. Of course she was older than I am at that time, Im guessing that maybe she is in high school?

To make the story is that, I am a kid, liked her when I first saw her. Lol im not a lesbian or anything, I'm definitely straight. Haha. Anyway, it was probably because she is very pretty (from my point of view ofc), look like a proper lady, seems gentle too..

Though now I dont really remember how she look like, since I only met her that one time only. But that one time let me remember her so strongly for quite a few years. Lol. Probably if i were to describe her, I can vividly say that her skin is as white as the moon, soft and silky like silk, her black hair glitter under the sunlight, shes thin and tall, lips as red as the little cherry.

What? It may be possible that it was a kind of first love, in a childish way. haha. Why i say so? Its because when i was a kid, i act like a boy, play tough like a boy, like to wear like boys, and i like to fight too. I didnt like my hair long, so my hair is always short, since long hair is hot and sweaty.

Anyway now, who knows how shes been, but definitely she must have already been married and have family, cause I myself is already 23 now. lol. Such a memory is sometime quite fun to recall lol. Its rather interesting.

Track 55: Ah, Mom, Dad, I'm Sorry

Mom, I'm sorry for today... I have angered you too much... I was rather ignorant, so it is my fault... I'm sorry that i am an unfillial child, sorry i dissapointed you again mom. Also im sorry for using a lame excuse to go out today...

To be honest, today I am simply accompanying my friend to go to Daikin Headquater at sungai buloh, and I dont intend to go play or go far, really, since i preffered to sleep more. However along with her, i submitted my resume incase if they have any job opening there. Though i did saw one opening which my course maybe can join as.

Why? because i am actually deadly scared out of my *** for this new interview, the closer is it to the date, the more scared and nervous i actually become. I can actually felt butterfly fluttering in my stomach, and i feel like i wanna go run away instead.

ah? what? Since when i have become a coward? If i need to explain, well, i guess because of the shock and depression that i receive during my internship period then. It was a great company, but I feel really lonely. I dont know who to talk to. I dont want both of you know that I was depressed. So I smiled in front of you.

Why? Why am i not telling you? I feel bad if I say bad things about this. I feel bad if I say that I was uncomfortable. I feel bad because I am not able to fullfill their expectation. Plus, I only managed to get an internship spot at that company because of Dad's friend's wife help. Else i wont be finishing my internship yet now.

Anyway for now, today I send my resume to two place, I'll try to find a simple job for now, cause I've been staying at home for too long, isnt it? I hope one of these place will let me work for them I guess...

Uh, for the interview on this friday... I-I'll try... *cries miserably*

Track 54 : Ah I'm back Yet again

Hello there~ I'm again back. lol.
Anyway whats been happening?

First thing first, I've finished my degree lol. Yeah, I went on and took a degree in computer forensic, but now I'm in a pinch, as I dunno what kind of job I can do. Why? Well, cause the syllabus are actually not really up-to-date, and I really got no proper skills to work in those jobs that actually proper for my qualification and course.

Before this, I was doing my practical for my final year of my degree, at an IT company. The comapny was great and all, but actually, I was feeling so lonely that I felt rather depressed. I got an internship there as a programmer, but the biggest problem is that my course doesnt really teach us and the programming subject is very very easy. Futher more, there was no one that are of the same age as me, and there are no one that are doing an internship there with me... I felt how slow the time was passing and  dislike it.

Truthfully, I do like the task, but I am very scared of my supervisor. I feel threatened, but he was kind and caring... Its just the way he talk and the word he used... Well dad, Im sorry for being such a coward. Im sorry if I ashamed you. But really, please pleaaseee dont ask me to try contact him for a job.

And more before before this, I got my MUET result lol. Aaahh... It's only Band 4... How disappointing. From the result i can see my weakness, which is in the speaking test [its either because I speak less or I'm not speaking clearly...] and the reading test [as i always got confused on the grammar. lol. afterall it test our understanding of the text and the pharagraph.]. The writing test and the listening test is very simple. lol. why? Cause the writing only need us to write an essay on the topic that they gave, while listening just need to listen to the audio and write the answer based on the audio content. Though the slang used in the audio maybe a challenge for some people, but for me it was such a crystal clear pronunciation, so it was very easy. lol.

Here if you want to know more about the test:
 Read more bout MUET Here

Hey! D-Dont Beat me! I'm not being arrogant or something! I'm not that proud person! For wagging around my result. Hahahaaaa xD.. Ey dont bite me! Lol. I'll smack you!. Hahahahaaa.

Also before this year, anyway, I started to cosplay! Hurray! But I wont be posting my picture here. lol. Find me if you can. haha. But I can tell you that I'm cosplaying as Mikaela Hyakuya from Owari no Seraph. The picture below is the character.

More about Owari no Seraph

This year, I'm not sure what I will be lol. But 3 more months to go~!. :)

Also, I'm rewriting one of the story that I posted in my other blog and deviantart. I'be only managed to write up to 5 chapters by salvaging the previous story line.You can click on the link below if you wanna give it a read. lol. Though I'm sure theres still a lot for my grammar that need to be improved. Ha.

Go here to read that story

Anyway now I'm Unemployed, and am still looking for jobs.. but I'm not as excited as before my practical anymore. I'm not really feel any optimism... Yes Yes Yes, I know I'm running away. *sigh*

Anyway, Thank you if there is anyone who read this. lol. Credit to Wiki for those more info.lol.